Darker Roads

In this never ending dark night

Nothing I can see

Being Lost and confused

Every path seems unclear

Walking through this for so long

Started loosing sense of direction

Compass too have failed

A moon brought moonlight

Showing up after big intervals for a while

And then getting veiled

Behind dark clouds

No matter if it’s raining

Or clear sky

It never shows up when requires

Falling over wines

Getting hit by ground

Maybe it’s to keep me grounded

Getting stuck in mud

Loosing ground in swamps

Maybe it’s to keep me down

Walking all blind

Even with good eyes

Maybe it’s to improve my sight

This journey has no end

As it’s complete dark

Direction less place

A black hole or a hole in black

I have no idea of this track

Moving or still

Even I have lost this sense

©Sanjay Ranout

If I was….

What if I was a tree!

You must be a wine around me,

What if I was a stone,

You must be green algae living on me,

What if I was an abode,

You must be the only occupant in there,

What if I was a desert land,

You must be the wind blowing over me,

What if I was a mountain,

You must be the snow over me,

What if I was a river,

You must be a boat sailing over me,

What if I was a valley,

You must be seasonal flower existing over me,

What if ! Can be anything,

But you are never permanent,

Neither you nor your words,

Still I carry them along with full worth,

It’s not you, who is special,a

Oh dear! It’s my heart who should get all the credit,

©Sanjay Ranout

Can Worst be Managed?

What if things I wish for, won’t happen,

What if again some unknown hurdle shows up ,

What if things get worse ,

What if all the hopes again dash into ground,

Through all these fears and insecurities,

I think, what will be worst case scenario!,

Will it be so hard to live with it,

Or it’s just imagination that is creating all the furore,

No matter what, Life goes on,

And I think even worst of worse also gets managed on its own,,

Real worst is the present life with imagination of future’s bad omen,,

As when the future will be present maybe all of these fears won’t even matter,

But thoughts of upcoming future will be overcasting our minds,

If we continue living with this thought,

How will we live if our fears will become real,,,,

Important is , not to think about them,,

Installing peace!!

If Human is a computer,

Brain is hard drive,

Mind is CPU,

Thoughts are inputs,

In Search for software,

Seeking peace as outputs,

Hard to perceive human a computer,

As it needs every time different software,

It’s complex like coding,

Some ransomware is continuously working,

To keep us always searching,

That one universal software ,

To install the peace in its Hard drive,

Viruses, malwares of fears and insecurities are always attacking,

And humans are decoding them one after another,

Antiviruses fail like antidotes,

And We need to improvise, adapt,

To Again install peace ,

I think this processing will go on,

As long a human life will live,

As long we never stop trying,

As long we aren’t ready to give up,

As long we never stop Hoping,

The longing of installing Peace,,

©Sanjay Ranout

Planning or Acceptance!!

So often I encountered the question ❓

What I really want ❓

As much it’s hard to resolve this equation,

That much often I face this situation,

Is life meant to be planned?

Or it just need to be accepted?

Is life been already designed?

Or we need to learn skills to design it?

It’s mysterious,

It’s disturbing,

Still its unable to hold on to one notion!

Sometimes it flows in our favour,

Sometimes it uncover totally different picture,

That’s why our perceptions swings,

Encoding happiness and peace with different strings,

From planning to just mere accepting it,

Is it all the mind game ❓

As it doesn’t want to live disturbed for long,

So it plans when it’s spring time,

And then in harsh times , it resolves to just accept what’s offered,

It takes time to switch it’s stint,

And it happens so often,

Thus it’s effects keep changing with time,

From disturbing me earlier,

To making me think now,,

Asking this question ❓

Is life meant to be accepted ❓

Or I need to plan it❓

©Sanjay Ranout

Today is important

What will happen tomorrow,

Or day after tomorrow,,

Who knows the future,

Who can tell the upcoming story,,

It’s all mystery,,

No one has any clue,

Still we prefer to live in its imagination,

What if it turns out to be in our favour,

What if it comes out with a different narrative,,

Fear of different than our propositions,

Excitement of facing favourable conditions,

And In this thinking process,

Leaving the whole action happening right now,

The magic of living right now,

Today is the real life happening for us,

Today is the magic that should be exciting us,

Everything else is just an imagination,

©Sanjay Ranout

The Times to forget and remember!

Do we need to remember it!

Or forget it!

But Once it will be over,

We’ll have a lot to figure out,

Unprecedented for few generations,

High times for unseen lows,

Confusions and chaos around,

Everywhere its calling to find more solutions,

Somewhere it’s seen as crisis,

Sometimes as nature’s reminder,

Maybe it’s an wide awakening call

That anytime life can stall,

Still we have hope ,

Passaging through this dark phase,

There is light at other side of tunnel,

A lot will be remembered,

A lot will be needed to forget,

How strange life can be,

Appearing in such strange tests,,

©Sanjay Ranout

Again and Again

Holding myself once again,

To check for her if she came online,

Despite of knowing it already,

Still heart want to make another try,

Sometimes it settles down in few attempts,

Sometimes it continue for hours trying every minute,

Building a castle of glass ,

Cemented with almighty hope,

And then feeling of getting dashed down everything,

Hurting itself when it ends up in nothing,

And yet again repeating the same next day,

Building and breaking endlessly again and again,

Sometimes I think how amazing the heart is,

How much important every feeling is,

How everything else just become worthless,

How it become the only important thing,

Is it same with everyone,

Or I m the only one, insane,

Whatever , whatever,,,,

With all dreams and their pain,

It just never want to give up,

And keep trying again and again,

Endlessly, insanely, illogically,,,

Repeating it everyday ,

Again and again,,,,

© Sanjay Ranout

When it’s so plain,,,

Who will stay and who has left,

What is gone and what’s still in hold,

What has finished and what is yet to start,

So many questions keep on surface,

When life has gone widespread so plain,

And all we can see ,the mounds and hounds of rising questionnaire,

Overcasting our minds with dark clouds,

Filled with confusions about what it holds,

And then Temptation of human minds to take negative sides,

Making us live fearful lives,

It’s okay when going through rough rides,

Easy to accept some high tides,

But going through plains,

How we go on paint these illusive mountains,,

And take sufferings of climbing those invisible heights above terrain,,,

©Sanjay Ranout

If we learn how to control our thoughts and emotions, I wonder if that will be evolution towards a better human race or that will too insensitive to be a human

Faith in process

Waiting for that day,

Making it believe that way,

Like it might have been longer Autumn,

Last of leaves might have fallen,

Storms of winters may be taking away new buds,

Making it their habit to Repeat their wrath,

Even after that trees are still standing tall,

Roots are Holding the ground tight,

Sooner or later storms have to give up,

And give way for spring to come up,

And let those buds to bloom,

Hoping it the way it is used to goes on,

Nature has its way to tell us to hold on,

Hope and believe strengthen our faith,

Sooner or later it happens ,no matter what it takes,,

©Sanjay Ranout