In the shadows of past

In the shadows of past,

Everything is fading away,

Fallen leaves of hope and dreams,

Driving the Life in this autumn season,

All these leaves are getting dried,

And one day they will dissolve in the soil,

But till then they will continue reminding me of them,

Their existence won’t be over till then,

Going through these harsh winters,

Seeing those nude branches around,

They will make things worse,

And memories of flowering dreams will refresh,

And that will only add to agonies,

Untill shadows of past will cease to exist,,

©Sanjay Ranout

Again and Again

Holding myself once again,

To check for her if she came online,

Despite of knowing it already,

Still heart want to make another try,

Sometimes it settles down in few attempts,

Sometimes it continue for hours trying every minute,

Building a castle of glass ,

Cemented with almighty hope,

And then feeling of getting dashed down everything,

Hurting itself when it ends up in nothing,

And yet again repeating the same next day,

Building and breaking endlessly again and again,

Sometimes I think how amazing the heart is,

How much important every feeling is,

How everything else just become worthless,

How it become the only important thing,

Is it same with everyone,

Or I m the only one, insane,

Whatever , whatever,,,,

With all dreams and their pain,

It just never want to give up,

And keep trying again and again,

Endlessly, insanely, illogically,,,

Repeating it everyday ,

Again and again,,,,

© Sanjay Ranout

When it’s so plain,,,

Who will stay and who has left,

What is gone and what’s still in hold,

What has finished and what is yet to start,

So many questions keep on surface,

When life has gone widespread so plain,

And all we can see ,the mounds and hounds of rising questionnaire,

Overcasting our minds with dark clouds,

Filled with confusions about what it holds,

And then Temptation of human minds to take negative sides,

Making us live fearful lives,

It’s okay when going through rough rides,

Easy to accept some high tides,

But going through plains,

How we go on paint these illusive mountains,,

And take sufferings of climbing those invisible heights above terrain,,,

©Sanjay Ranout

If we learn how to control our thoughts and emotions, I wonder if that will be evolution towards a better human race or that will too insensitive to be a human

Faith in process

Waiting for that day,

Making it believe that way,

Like it might have been longer Autumn,

Last of leaves might have fallen,

Storms of winters may be taking away new buds,

Making it their habit to Repeat their wrath,

Even after that trees are still standing tall,

Roots are Holding the ground tight,

Sooner or later storms have to give up,

And give way for spring to come up,

And let those buds to bloom,

Hoping it the way it is used to goes on,

Nature has its way to tell us to hold on,

Hope and believe strengthen our faith,

Sooner or later it happens ,no matter what it takes,,

©Sanjay Ranout

Haywire or Maywire

When you were last in control,

I forgot that day if ever existed at all,

You were always on your own,

And I was proposing you to go my way,

You never bothered what I say,

And it wasn’t meant to go in my way,

And then I realised to let it go in its own way,

Let’s sit back and enjoy the ride,

Wherever it takes me,

Wherever it want me to stay,

Maybe it’s the place meant for me,

Maybe that’s the way it had to be,

Maybe that’s the path where peace lies,

Maybe it’s the real meaning of life,,

©Sanjay Ranout

Roar of Sky

A wonder among the wonders,

Blinking in the form of thunders,

One after another strikes ,

Lightening all over the sky,

Maybe it will pour bigger,

As clouds presenting dark figures,

Isn’t it an exciting hue,

Little scary yet a beautiful view,

Thunders are rumbling harder now,

Making our heartbeats a bit louder,

Exciting our body with its roar,,

©Sanjay Ranout

End of tunnel

If I could see,

If I could know,

If I could understand,

When this tunnel is going to end,

I have heard there is light beyond it,

It open up into bright white,

It makes everything visible to our sight,

Ending our journey through dark as night,

It opens a colourful world to our eyes,

Give reality to all of our imaginations,

Ends our wait filled with endless frustrations,

Ends the fray of keep walking on assumptions,

Gives Validation to our hopes,

And our faith gets a deserving win,

I heard it somewhere,

There is light at end of tunnel,

I wish I could know when will it end,

© Sanjay Ranout

Sleep!!! Sleep!!!

Once again, It’s call for midnight,

Only nocturnals are left upright,

Yet another awake night,

Inner voices are calling to sleep,

It’s been an hour or more,

My eyelids have been in perfect lock,

But it’s the mind who holds the control,

It’s wandering about every aspect it got across,

Like it’s going to end all confusions tonight,

Like it’s the only time to plan everything right,

Like right now only, it can see the clear picture,

Like these moments are going to be very crucial for my future,

Making the wines out of every event happened today,

Taking me in and out of this imagination fray,

It’s strange how it’s the most difficult thing to restrain,,

And yet we make efforts to take whole world under our rein,

Call it important or just insomania,

Still it teaches some real aspects we ignore,

It’s our mind who holds power over all outer cores,

And it’s only responsible for every moment we live in disturbed state,,,

©Sanjay Ranout

Fears of mind – what ,why , and are they really worth??

When we think, why we are ignoring our instincts  ? Why are we not following our instincts? The only answer you will have is the fear, in actual lot of fears in our mind that are holding us back to take that first step.

Fear of people’s perception about us , if it’s good, then we are afraid of taking that step as we think it may get changed to something negative.

Fear of acceptance by our own near and dear ones. Fear of living in insecurity etc.

But I think the real thing is not fear but your own self belief and confidence on yourself.

Ever you think what will happen even if it goes wrong , nothing will actually change outside as people’s perception itself is temporary and full of their own self motives .

But it will change a lot inside you. It will change what you think about yourself. You will first time realise that it’s real you who is breathing in your body.

And I think that’s first step and only step you need to take to drive away all your fears. Fear itself is a worry about something that may happen but it hasn’t yet happened.

People’s perception changes with time and your position till the time you will continue living upto their perception of being right and still you can’t make all happy as all have different perspectives again.

But once you start being yourself ,your self outlook will be permanent and people will start thinking that can they really  make a wrong perception about you. It’s tough in the start but once you become fearless life is simple and clear .

Above everything you will be at peace with yourself

© Sanjay Ranout

Meanings for Moments

I can feel but I don’t know it,

This moment has something in it,

I can perceive it but can’t see it,

What for all this is meant,

With every thought pouring in,

Making my mind wander around,

It’s confusing, it’s painful,,

When one doesn’t know which direction to head,

Flowing like a log of wood,

In a river having lot of heads,

Bending and dividing at every mile,

Don’t know when it will reach its end,

How longer is this path, it has headed on,,

When will it resolve all the suspense,

More I think, more it delays ,

When is that right time,

When will it tell it’s reasons,

This moment or next,

Only moment knows the best,

It keep everything to its behest,

I think , I perceive ,,

Wander without getting any answers,

Still it has got its reasons,

And I know it won’t tell me straight,

And will make me to leave everything to its fate,,

©Sanjay Ranout